SACRED CONTRACTS JOURNALING EXERCISE SERIES
PART 2 OF 8
WHERE ARE YOU ENERGY LEAKS?
We are tapping into our calling, our purpose, our joy in this SACRED CONTRACTS journal series. It is inspired by Caroline Myss. The journal series is an experiment on my part, and I welcome you to join along. Recall Part 1: Future and Present where we took time to look at where we would like to be, and where we are in this moment.
In this exercise, I would like you to focus on your body. Where do you feel your energy leaking in those moments where you experience extreme fatigue, or anxiety, or joylessness, or just plain meh. Is there a location on your body where you tend to feel more physical symptoms than other parts of your body? Does the location change?
Throughout my childhood, youth and marriage, I would be doubled over every evening with severe stomach cramps. The kids called it mom stomach. I called it stomach migraines as did many doctors over the years.
As my marriage dissolved and I started searching for ways to cope, I felt comfort in looking at chakra charts. Myss’s book Anatomy of the Spirit was a life raft during that time. My mother and I loved discussing Myss’s concept of biography becomes biology. We explored sources of mom’s arthritis (trust issues she felt), Dad’s bladder cancer, etc.
Certainly my pleaser-anxious-low self-esteem-caregiver personality searching for my own voice had a lot to do with those evening stomach aches. What released them was being fully myself in my art and with my two children.
Looking at the drawing I made above (click on it for larger image), I see that teetered between the SACRAL and the SOLAR PLEXUS.
During my coming-of-age and adolescence and sexual awakening, I experienced a recurring and over time aggressive parotid gland tumor that threatened my facial nerve. To speak, to express. I longed to have my own voice. That voice developed fully in my art and as a mother. And small remnants of the tumor sit quietly.
It’s just plain helpful for self-focus to play with the chakra charts. Many of you that know me know that I have done YEARS of self-exploration and work. I am no longer doubled over with stomach aches.
That is likely why I developed my esteem heart exercise! We do not need to fear energy leaks. We need to listen. To explore.
So take some time to journal/draw on where you tend to lose energy. Where your physical ailments are in this moment.
Take some time to focus on your SELF.
Stay tuned for Part 3: WHAT MASK DO YOU WEAR?
I often channel “Little Enid” by Daniel Clowes when I self-identify/draw myself in my mind maps.