Fear and resistance on a Monday morning. #Journal

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The more scared we are of a work or a calling, the more sure we can be that we have to do it.

~ The War of Art by Steven Pressfield

I am answering a call.  More on that soon.

Yet still I struggle with the same old anxieties around money.  I am taking steps, mind you, but my anticipated financial overhaul/debt consolidation will be “delayed” for a few months as I wait until late Spring for the value of my home to increase to make the overhaul have any significant significance.  I say “delayed” with quotation marks for I sense I use that word because a voice in me constantly “encourages” me (annoyingly) to avoid taking any other action now that is just as helpful as a financial overhaul.   

But I cannot delay any longer! I’ve said it beforeOnly by accepting that all is ok in this moment, no matter where all the accounts stand, can I weigh those options, make bold moves, and ALLOW CHANGE.  It’s time to manage the moola…

But what I have done now, that is different from before, is that I have accepted to REALLY ACKNOWLEDGE what steps I need to take to allow for more income by following the direction of where my soul flows– the soul-lifting areas with incredible expansion potential- and to move away from the areas where I am only treading water and losing energy because of it.

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I am too old to not take the “risk,” to not answer the call and to not give these opportunities I find myself in everything they deserve.  IT’S TIME.  These new opportunities deserve my FULL ME.

[Resistance is] any act which disdains short-term gratification in favor of long-term growth, health or integrity. Or, expressed another way, any act that derives from our higher nature instead of our lower. Any act of these types will elicit Resistance.

The War of Art by Steven Pressfield

And I embrace that, despite the tendency of being hard on myself for being in the struggle, EVERYTHING I have experienced to this point is actually empowering me!

EVERYTHING.  The shit and the sunshine, as my Dad would say.

So what am I actually feeling when I am fearing?  Fear is just old triggers reminding me of getting report cards in school and feeling judged and feeling stupid and never good enough.  Fear is just the increased blood pressure pushing blood through my veins a little faster.

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Fear is my heart beating loudly, stuck at the starter gate [resistance], desperate for the signal to break free and RUN!

Well I howl now!

GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

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Out of the starter gate.  Jumping off the cliff. Forming wings on the way down.

Beautiful and free.  And fearless.  Created by my nephew Henrik during his summer holiday. Age 22 months.
Beautiful and free. And fearless. Created by my nephew Henrik during his summer holiday. Age 22 months.

She wasn’t falling.

She was soaring.

– Carolyn Riker

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A huge happy birthday to my sweet and beautiful sister-in-law, Cher Hanusiak!

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She is one of the most amazing people I know and a supermom to my nephew, Henrik.

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Check out Cher’s inspiring blog, EcoBravo!

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My nephew’s first painting!

It’s my baby brother’s birthday today!

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Fredrik is now a Dad to beautiful Henrik:

Here’s Henrik with his mom, aka Fredrik’s partner and my incredible sister-in-law, Cher:

I wanted to help Henrik make the ultimate present for his Dad.  What could be better than his first painting!  I was in heaven watching Henrik work on the canvas!  The photos are shaky because I needed to ensure Henrik didn’t pour the paint all over himself!

I started it off with two red lines so that Henrik could get the concept of applying paint to canvas.

 

I glued the brush Henrik used onto the frame!  DELIGHTFUL.

The frame was handmade by my friend, Darcy!

Check out this wonderful new blog- Ecobravo!

Absolutely delighted about the launch of my sister-in-law, Cher’s new blog: ECOBRAVO!

 

Cher is one of the most beautiful and elegant people I know, with a glorious sense of aesthetics and ethics. Her blog reflects that perfectly.

Ecobravo highlights eco-friendly and socially responsible products, services, people and design. I want to share my passion for all things gorgeous and friendly to the precious world we live in and the people we love.

We are consumers… not much can change that. Most of us couldn’t imagine how to go back to pioneer life, but… we can consume less and we can consume better. We can make better choices. We can be more informed about the products we buy. We can support the people who are doing their best to help the world and it’s citizens.

To NOMINATE a fabulous eco business or person, or if you have an inquiry, please contact Cher at:

cheriak@eco-bravo.ca

I love watching Cher’s interaction with her son, Henrik (my nephew)— it’s perfection.

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