Dreams of my art being attached to some kind of imaginary romantic self-sustaining monetary outcome no longer serve me. If my creative process is to continue to be my sacred practice, continue to develop, if my creative process is where I let go of attachment, let go of comparing myself to others, let go of control, then I also let go of those dreams.
And instead embrace the simple and healing journey of process. Of self-discovery.
From Revolution From Within- a book of self-esteem, by Gloria Steinem (1992, Little Brown and Company, New York, NY):
… But the point of the journey is not just the healing. It’s also recovering the truest, most spontaneous, joyful, and creative core of ourselves. If any of the stories you have just read strikes an emotional chord, that’s a possible signal from your inner self. If anything in the present brings you unreasonable pleasure or sadness, that’s a clue, too. The important thing is to make the connections between past and present. And, of course, not everything is in our power to know. We need faith in a future that will redeem the past…
… Any one of our human capacities, if unused out of fear or shame, leaves a small hole in the fabric of our self-esteem. Think of the times you have said: “I can’t write,” “I can’t paint,” “I can’t run,” “I can’t shout,” “I can’t dance,” “I can’t sing.” Since this was not literally true, you were really saying: “I can’t meet some outside standard. I’m not acceptable as I am.“
… Give yourself the opportunity to discover your own imagery… your true self made visible.
I was so moved last night by the NASA’s successful landing of Curiosity on Mars. Many of us were pulled out of our navel-gazing and looked outward in unison and celebration. But to look inward and to look outward is the human dance. An important one.
What do my self-explorations in journals mean? Is it all part of the big picture?
We literally plug into an inner energy that it ours alone, yet connects us to everything else. To put it another way: I began to understand that self-esteem isn’t everything; it’s just that there’s nothing without it.
The real which is at the heart of the universe is reflected in the infinite depths of the self. – Sarvepalli Radhakrishnan
Curiosity is insubordination in its purest form. Vladimir Nabokov
… exploring the reaches and mysteries of inner space…” – Assemblyman Vasconcellos
A movement is only composed of people moving. To feel its warmth and motion around us is the end as well as the means. – Gloria Steinhem
An idea is building and I thank the women I met with last night for our initial brainstorm. Stay tuned as we move from the concept to the concrete! What unfolds will be a surprise to all involved. A beautiful surprise!
Do not become alarmed when you experience yourself in totally new ways… You are changing, getting ready to be initiated into the third stage of your life. Are you ready for the ride of your life?
– Susun Weed
Without leaps of imagination, or dreaming, we lose the excitement of possibilities. Dreaming, after all, is a form of planning. – Gloria Steinem