My @TwinPeaks fan art helps me hold on to the dream

We are like the dreamer who dreams and then lives inside the dream.

I process my obsessions through creativity.  And there is a lot to process as we have reached “the end” of Twin Peaks: The Return.

A Lynch fan since Eraserhead, deeply deeply influenced and inspired by The Elephant Man and Blue Velvet, I recall cutting out the news article about the pilot in early 1990.  It showed Ronette Pulaski walking across the railroad bridge.


I recall the cultural shift when the show aired on April 8, 1990.  The camaraderie as the weekly episodes were inspected and analyzed voraciously.

Our family’s countless trips to North Bend and travelling to all the sites from the show.

Staying at the “Great Northern” (The Salish Lodge) and walking down to the falls.

Meeting the one armed man and the man from another place (the arm) on the streets outside of the RR Diner during the first Twin Peaks festival.  They signed our copy of Lolita- she is filled with secrets.

Drinking coffee and eating cherry pie at the RR diner.

Multiple trips, multiple times.

Being FREAKED OUT by Bob (to this day).  On a visit to Las Vegas Fall 1990, I saw Bob silhouetted by the lights outside, in front of the sheer curtains, sitting in a lounge chair.  He leaned forward and turned his head towards me.  I leapt out of bed.  JEEEEEEEEEZUS.

My son recreating the Laura wrapped in plastic scene at the exact location in 2010.

Reading Laura Palmer’s diary a gazillion times and collecting every clipping, article, book, collecting, collecting.

Trading fan art on instagram.

Buttons and magnets by @skyyedawl

Looking for clues in every other Lynch film.


This new season was so much about my generation aging.  Beautifully aging.


Aging is celebrated, honoured by Lynch.

I have wept for my own losses.  All the life markers experienced since that first episode aired.  (The log lady looking so much like my mother before she passed.)

We are like the dreamer who dreams and then lives inside the dream.


The dumbest and greatest and deepest show.


My illustration (2016) for Matthew Roy’s incredible speculative fiction novel could be renamed “GOTTA LIGHT?” (Episode 8 Season 3)

Art saves lives. My dad at work on his second book. #strokerecovery #arttherapy

My father is busy at work on his second volume of illustrations.  His first book The Old Apple Tree is ready for editing and self-publishing.  I can’t wait for the day I surprise him with the first copy.  I am truly blessed to witness the healing power of art as my Dad thrives at his extended care facility, carving out a life for himself.  He has purpose, routine, passion.  He has reclaimed his emotional life.  What can be greater than that?  We have such a good time together talking about LIFE, sharing this project, discussing the FUTURE.  Wow.  Deep breath of gratitude.

Rather than separate intellect from affect, [art], like life, weaves the two together. – L. S. Vygotsky

My favorite #illustrator: Björn Berg #MySwedishChildhood

Source: Scan of old calendar page. Astrid Lindgren © Björn Berg © Ide-Hjelm Förlag AB

I can hardly write this without being overcome by sentimentality and childhood memories.  Björn Berg illustrated Astrid Lindgren‘s and Alf Prøysen‘s work and my Swedish world perfectly.

His depictions of Emil and Teskedsgumman (Mrs. Pepperpot) are searing in their spartan simplicity.  The role of the illustrator is to illuminate the text.  Björn Berg says so much with his quick hand and with his mastery of the human figure and movement.  Just looking at the illustrations gives the reader an indication of the action in the text.  The Sweden in his books are TRUTH.  I lived this life and I live it still in my mind and soul.  I ache for Sweden.  But it’s still there.  I know I can always visit it in the pages of Emil i Lönneberga.

Björn Berg 1923-2008


Emil i Lönneberga: (some scans from my personal book library)

From: Emil i Lönneberga by Astrid Lindgren, illustrated by Björn Berg. 3rd Edition Rabén & Sjögren, Stockholm ©1963

From: Än Lever Emil i Lönneberga by Astrid Lindgren, illustrated by Björn Berg. 3rd Edition Rabén & Sjögren, Stockholm ©1971