The Sketchbook Project page 4

THE SKETCHBOOK PROJECT 2011 TOUR

Theme: And Then There Was None

Page 4 Transcript

Friday October 8, 2010

Westfield San Francisco Centre

At Borders under the dome

16:54

Look up Hans Fallada “The Drinker” and “Everyman Dies Alone”

17:04

Anna is almost done.  Time for Whole Foods and an opening tonight.

There is a lady sleeping in the lounge chair beside me.  Obviously recovering from her cancer treatment.  Recall the delicate beauty of mom as she took such care to dress beautifully and do makeup right up until after her last Thanksgiving.  Then she let go and so did we.  I still have her hair curlers/comb/purse/cell phone etc.  What does it all mean?

20:29

We walked home then out to Sushi Rocks (after visiting Leftovers and buying a horn).  Great dinner.  Then Whole Foods (after running into Anna’s co-worker Ashley).  Grocery shopping then just got back.  Talked to Morf  (who had gotten a funny phonecall from us by accident as we were hugging in the airport!) (now going to The Social Network).

Recall the African Doll lady.

NOTE: The photo is from a collection of vintage family photos I found at MYSTERY MISTER 1506 Haight Street, San Francisco

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THE SKETCHBOOK PROJECT 2011 TOUR

Theme: And Then There Was None

Page 3 Transcript

Friday October 8, 2010

Westfield San Francisco Centre

At Nordstrom Espresso Bar

2010 October 2010

15:52

San Francisco

What do I think of when I think of “and then there was none”?  When I first chose the theme I thought about

  1. Mom’s death
  2. The official end of the divorce.  Support payments stopped.
  3. My childhood
  4. My kids growing up.

Hilarious to get this forced time to start the Sketchbook in a mall in San Fran.

Achy body.  Must take Tylenol.

Maybe I could think about “and then there was none”:

DEPENDENCE

No more trying too hard.

More letting go.

More surrender.

More trust.

More trust.

More trust.

More trust.

No more fears no more barriers no more self criticism no more money worries no more undervaluing myself no more exhaustion or being pulled in too many directions no more obscurity or misunderstanding.


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THE SKETCHBOOK PROJECT 2011 TOUR

Theme: And Then There Was None

Page 2 Transcript

Friday October 8, 2010

Westfield San Francisco Centre

Karin • Kristina • Mamma

It’s almost been 2 years since mom passed away.  I have never really written about those last moments.  For they were not “last.”  But all of a sudden– Mom’s powerful presence in our life changed.  I felt her breathe out.  Her heart slowed and stopped.  I was there with my head on her chest.  And we surrounded her with love and support and her spirit infused us.  It is actually impossible to grasp.  How does life continue after that?  And is it OK to actually feel free and perhaps free-er?  Heart

I miss just talking to Mom.  Just about the kids and laundry and food and life.  I miss the chatter and the camaraderie and the “I get it” and the simple stuff.  We could talk about kids.

I miss my own childhood.  The safety + fun or being the kid.

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The Sketchbook Project page 1

I started the Sketchbook Project at YVR. Here is the original page, which I added to today. See below

THE SKETCHBOOK PROJECT 2011 TOUR

Theme: And Then There Was None

Page 1 Transcript

8:16 AM

Friday October 8, 2010

Gate 83 @YVR

I promised myself I would start this journal at the aiport on my way to visit Anna.  It will be a place to process grief.  A place to address loss and allow myself to sit with it and move forward.  The key is to stay free.

My theme: “and then there was none.”

15:04

Met Anna at the airport!

Took BART to Westfield mall.  Walked to Anna’s apartment.  Changed.  Ate at a cute little place [Farm Table].  Now Anna is at work and I spent $ on myself on clothes.  Typical me stuff.

Feeling anxious as I already miss Anna even tho I’m here.

It’s over and I miss their childhood, my mom, my innocence.  I do not miss my marriage.  Is that bad?

A year ago she left the nest and Julian is growing and working.  Wow.  “And then there was none.”  I must take time to grieve and celebrate my new role as mom.

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