June 21, 2023 6:30 PM

Fell into a post-work nap (that desperate 15 min kind), then did a lagoon lap, listening to Górecki – Symphony No. 3 Final Movement twice as I visualized the choreography I have been working on.

When I got home, I got a strange feeling – standing on the precipice, moving into something new, but losing what I knew.

It was an overwhelming sense of… loss? Emptiness?

Fear of what has been expressed. Stepping forward into a fearful joyous abyss.