My retreat journal part 6 of 6: The Closing Circle

I experienced a life-changing weekend as I co-facilitated Creativity and Connection Retreat October 17-19, 2014 on Bowen Island with Laura Mack at Xenia Retreat.  Here are some journal excerpts so you can get a small glimpse as to how powerful the experience was for me. Recall: PART 1 October 17, 2014 FRIDAY INTO SILENCE PART 2 October…

My retreat journal Part 3 of 6: The Cyclops Goddess

I experienced a life-changing weekend as I co-facilitated Creativity and Connection Retreat October 17-19, 2014 on Bowen Island with Laura Mack at Xenia Retreat.  Here are some journal excerpts so you can get a small glimpse as to how powerful the experience was for me. Recall: PART 1 October 17, 2014 FRIDAY INTO SILENCE PART 2 October…

My retreat journal Part 2 of 6: Into the labyrinth

I experienced a life-changing weekend as I co-facilitated Creativity and Connection Retreat October 17-19, 2014 on Bowen Island with Laura Mack at Xenia Retreat.  Here are some journal excerpts so you can get a small glimpse as to how powerful the experience was for me. Recall: PART 1 October 17, 2014 FRIDAY INTO SILENCE — Part 2 October…

My retreat journal Part 1 of 6: INTO SILENCE

I experienced a life-changing weekend as I co-facilitated Creativity and Connection Retreat October 17-19, 2014 on Bowen Island with Laura Mack at Xenia Retreat.  A HUGE THANK YOU TO LAURA FOR PROVIDING THIS OPPORTUNITY FOR ME. SPECIAL THANK YOU Saria, and to Angelyn, Loretta, Fran and Lorena — Here are some journal excerpts so you…

Grief hits me when I least suspect it, with a solitary evening walk…

All of a sudden, all I want to do is organize mom’s closet, as she lies on the bed and chats with me, the parrot cuddling her hand, Tobey on the floor below, with Grey Gardens on in the background. Grief hits me when I least suspect it, with a solitary evening walk, letting the dog…

Why the need to draw what draws us? #journal #rambling

Why are we drawn to the human face? What draws us in? Why the need to draw what draws us? Why do we fixate on the stare of an eye meeting an eye? Is the draw of the portrait the silence in the glance, the fastidiousness of the stare? The reflection in a mirror- a…

“I am wandering awed… gnawed trees breathe a delicate air.” Creativity & Connection Retreat Oct 17-19, 2014

CREATIVITY AND CONNECTION RETREAT WITH LAURA AND KAT Retreat Flyer We will provide you with tools for gaining insight and shifting perspective using inspiring themes such as archetype symbology and shadow-work.  Self-reflection activities will take you deeper into your own journey while group experiences expand your mindset. Laura will share authentic leadership exercises to assist…

Sunday morning visit with my mother.

It’s Sunday morning. I’ve been up awhile. Dog is walked. Pot of coffee almost gone. Parrot loud. Rest of the household asleep. Making pancakes. On Sundays, with Corrie on in the background, I make pancakes and visit with my mom. She’s there with me and we can talk freely about all the wonderful trivial things…

Sacred Contracts Journal Exercise Part 6 of 8: PULL BACK TO THE PAST

SACRED CONTRACTS JOURNALING EXERCISE SERIES PART 6 OF 8 PULL BACK TO THE PAST We are tapping into our calling, our purpose, our joy in this SACRED CONTRACTS journal series.  It is inspired by Caroline Myss.  The journal series is  an experiment on my part, and I welcome you to join along. Recall Part 1: Future and Present where…

Sacred Contracts Journal Exercise Part 5 of 8: Throat Chakra

  SACRED CONTRACTS JOURNALING EXERCISE SERIES PART 5 OF 8 THROAT CHAKRA We are tapping into our calling, our purpose, our joy in this SACRED CONTRACTS journal series.  It is inspired by Caroline Myss.  The journal series is  an experiment on my part, and I welcome you to join along. Recall Part 1: Future and Present where we took…

“their heart grew cold/ they let their wings down” Dead Birds Series. Embroidered drawings.

“their heart grew cold they let their wings down” ― Sappho, If Not, Winter: Fragments of Sappho Embroidered drawing. 18×24″

Same image, different context. What is the truth? #molly #graphicnovel

I took down my “working wall” for my graphic novel, Molly. I am planning to put up a cork wall to start creating the Molly AUTOPSY image I imagine. The story of Molly will unfold in the various peel-backs of the autopsy, while at the same time following a 5 act structure. It strikes me…

Sacred Contracts Journaling Exercise Part 4b OF 8: SACRED BODY

  SACRED CONTRACTS JOURNALING EXERCISE SERIES PART 4b OF 8 SACRED BODY We are tapping into our calling, our purpose, our joy in this SACRED CONTRACTS journal series.  It is inspired by Caroline Myss.  The journal series is  an experiment on my part, and I welcome you to join along. Recall Part 1: Future and Present where we took…

Sacred Contracts Journaling Exercise Part 4a of 8: what is your true nature?

SACRED CONTRACTS JOURNALING EXERCISE SERIES PART 4a OF 8 WHAT IS YOUR TRUE NATURE? We are tapping into our calling, our purpose, our joy in this SACRED CONTRACTS journal series.  It is inspired by Caroline Myss.  The journal series is  an experiment on my part, and I welcome you to join along. Recall Part 1: Future and Present where we…

Sacred Contracts Journaling Exercise Part 3 of 8: what masks do we wear?

SACRED CONTRACTS JOURNALING EXERCISE SERIES PART 3 OF 8 WHAT MASKS DO WE WEAR? We are tapping into our calling, our purpose, our joy in this SACRED CONTRACTS journal series.  It is inspired by Caroline Myss.  The journal series is  an experiment on my part, and I welcome you to join along. Recall Part 1: Future and Present where…

Sacred Contracts Journaling Exercise Part 2 of 8: where are your energy leaks?

  SACRED CONTRACTS JOURNALING EXERCISE SERIES PART 2 OF 8 WHERE ARE YOU ENERGY LEAKS? We are tapping into our calling, our purpose, our joy in this SACRED CONTRACTS journal series.  It is inspired by Caroline Myss.  The journal series is  an experiment on my part, and I welcome you to join along.  Recall Part…

Mindmapping, visualization and archetype contemplation. Working on new journaling series.

Not sure where I am taking this new journal series that is gestating. Letting it unfold until it “arrives.”

“Seeing your life in broad strokes and in bright pieces allows you to redraw…” @carolinemyss

In detecting the emotional charge in your biography, you can begin to see how the fragments of your history have worked together in ways that have affected your past, your present, and the state of your health. This perspective is what I call symbolic sight. Seeing your life in broad strokes and in bright pieces…

It has been a beautiful fight. Still is. – Bukowski

“Lighting new cigarettes, pouring more drinks. It has been a beautiful fight. Still is.” – Charles Bukowski

Home is a place in the mind. When it is empty, it frets… #sayinggoodbye

Home is a place in the mind. When it is empty, it frets. It is fretful with memory, faces and places and times gone by. Beloved images rise up in disobedience and make a mirror for emptiness. MAEVE BRENNAN, The Visitor With gratitude, exhaustion, wonder, and excitement, we said goodbye to our North Vancouver home…

China marker therapy

A china marker. Newsprint. The act of drawing. That is when my mind is at rest. That is where I channel my racing mind. Drop the baggage, for good. Leave no imprint, not even a trace… – Rebelle Society

I could hear her heart stop.

I could hear her heart slow then stop. Then she flew. She flew straight down to San Francisco. She flew straight to her mother and aunts. She became everything.

Removing the fear- a deconstruction.

Deconstructing a blockage tonight by analyzing its essential parts:

I am finding chaos a trigger to inner peace. #journalexercise

At times, life can feel chaotic.  Both within and without and especially in moments on transition, when to-do lists double up and there are never enough hours in the day.  When you sense stress in colleagues as they anticipate change.  Your nerves are highly sensitive to triggers and the panic demon sits in the very…

As an right-brain entrepreneur- I need to a flexible and fluid yet rigid schedule.

I am about to embark on a full-time art career as in-house artist for by post street, illustrator, writer, street artist, and art facilitator for youth/adults.  This means moving away from frontline youth coordination to focusing 100% on the art.  It is extraordinarily exciting. Art for me is not just about being in the moment…

I choose to remove my own mask in my own time. #authenticity

Don’t you, when strangers and friends come to call, straighten the cushions, kick the books under the bed and put away the letter you were writing? How many of us want any of us to see us as we really are?  Isn’t the mirror hostile enough? ― Jeanette Winterson We can receive all the help and…

Responsibility garden… #journalexercise

I am taking charge of my own life.  All the seeds have been planted.  The shoots are healthy.  And growing.  It’s time for me to tend my own garden.   In the long run, we shape our lives, and we shape ourselves. The process never ends until we die. And the choices we make are…

Some self reflection in my #DIY collage project!

Step 1. Get a square IKEA MALMA mirror. Step 2. Print out (actual size) 4 panels of my piece “Mirror.” (Click on the images for full size.  Drag onto desktop, fiddle around with it!) Step 3. They are designed to be pieced together (overlapped) and mod-podged on the square IKEA MALMA mirrors. Step 4. Add your own glitter, paint, words,…

Come away, O human child! To the waters and the wild With a faery, hand in hand. – Yeats

WHERE dips the rocky highland Of Sleuth Wood in the lake, There lies a leafy island Where flapping herons wake The drowsy water rats; There we’ve hid our faery vats, Full of berrys And of reddest stolen cherries. Come away, O human child!  To the waters and the wild  With a faery, hand in hand, …

Flight journal-stream of consciousness questions in the clouds.

Flight journal-stream of consciousness questions in the clouds. On takeoff, as the earth rushed underneath me and the draw of gravity pulled my attention in my window seat 32F, a question struck me- is it ok to die today? Would I run into Mamma and Pappa’s arms? Would I be at torpet? Would there be…

Journal entry: Changes ahead. Surrending and allowing.

I sense big changes ahead.  For many of us. Tomorrow I am sitting down with my daughter and with large boards and pens and laying it all out. Where am I in this moment?  I will make a complete list of all debts owing, where my accounts stand today, and three months projections ahead.  I…

Mind maps integrate both right-brain and left-brain thinking. And you know me- I LOVE them!

Impromptu session mind-mapping with my dear friends, Evelyn and Reem today.  So healing.  I just love starting in the centre and working our way out.  We don’t necessarily know what we are focusing on, but letting it evolve. Mind maps integrate both right-brain and left-brain thinking by capturing your stream of consciousness in a structured…

The failure dragon may be too tired to sabotage me today…

On the cusp of things moving forward and still facing extreme financial issues but I dare say the fear/anxiety has a different tone.  I want to write question mark ‘?’  Different tone?  But actually no- different tone.  Period.  This is the time in our dream quest where we have to: Wait And Allow. You’ll come…

Does context help or hinder your interpretation of art?

Does context change the way your interpret an image? A piece of art? Does knowing whether or not the artist is a man or woman affect the way you read the image? Is it important to know how the artist self-identifies? Does it matter if she was an alcoholic? If he was a bastard? If…

“Leaving behind in autumn’s advent…” My father’s last tax filings.

I filed my father’s taxes and submitted his will.  All is done.  All is wrapped up regarding both my mother and father’s paperwork.  How very strange. There was no probate as my father died with no savings, no life insurance, no assets… but I am left massively rich, with a full heart and peaceful soul.  Their…

My parents’ skeletonized forms… #Journal ramblings on the seabus…

  March 4, 2013 I cannot help but see my parents’ skeletonized forms.  It does not scare me.  It fascinates.  I am hyperly aware of Dad’s skeletal hands holding a pen.  Mom’s sunken crevices in her skull as she applies makeup.  It’s not grotesque.  There is still the vibrant flesh of life covering, but it…

Life has no opposite. – Eckhart Tolle #journalexercise

Birth <–> LIFE <–> Death What comes to mind?  Draw it out in your journal. When you walk through a forest that has not been tamed and interfered with by man, you will see not only abundant life all around you, but you will also encounter fallen trees and decaying trunks, rotting leaves and decomposing…

The farm. Autumn meditation.

Recalling my favorite farm on the Sunshine Coast. —

#Firstandforever: Dr. Martens

— — See also: If the kids are united San Francisco

Facing the wall of fear… #journal exercise. #arttherapy

Waking up with the cannonball weight of anxiety and fear in your chest?  Racing thoughts about all the usual?  Worried that you won’t be able to deliver all you have promised?  That you don’t have enough resources?  Financially, physically, spiritually?  Forgetting to live in the moment and over-thinking the future?  Scattered and feeling disorganized?  You…

Anxiety from anticipating/processing loss requires pulling out the tool kit. #journaling

I’m working on a book with Dad and it’s a beautiful process.  It’s about maintaining connections through art and with art. But as Dad goes through his past, and I take dictation and notes… … I am filled with nostalgia for a life passed, I am filled with the heaviness of missing my mom. I…

ANTICIPATION. #Journaling exercise PART 4: draw out the poetry. #arttherapy

I’m developing a journal exercise around anticipation. Recall in Part 1, I encouraged you to write about the words: ANTICIPATION, PROCESS and AFTERMATH. In part 2, we wrote freely, deconstructed and wove the words together. In part 3 we drew out the fear. Today, let’s write about what we leave behind after anticipation and process.  Then draw…

ANTICIPATION. #Journaling exercise PART 3: draw out the fear. #arttherapy

I’m developing a journal exercise around anticipation.  Recall in Part 1, I encouraged you to write about the words: ANTICIPATION, PROCESS and AFTERMATH. In part 2, we wrote freely, deconstructed and wove the words together: Today write about how anticipation can cause fear.  Is it self-sabotage or is it part of the process? Draw how it feels….

ANTICIPATION. #Journaling exercise PART 2 woven collage. #arttherapy

I’m developing a journal exercise around anticipation.  Recall in Part 1, I encouraged you to write about the words: ANTICIPATION, PROCESS and AFTERMATH. In this entry write freely about ANTICIPATION: Using dry pastel- color each line. Rub it down. Spray it with hairspray. Now cut strips. Weave them together. We anticipate events.  As we process them,…

ANTICIPATION. #Journaling exercise PART 1 #arttherapy

I’m developing a journal exercise around anticipation.  I was moved to do it a. as I was struck this week by my father’s aging and b. as I was watching my students courageously tackle exercises thrown at them during a voiceover studio field trip. For Part 1, I’d like you to write about the words:…

Moments… that’s all we really have. Here are some that caught my attention this weekend.

You must live in the present, launch yourself on every wave, find your eternity in each moment. – Henry David Thoreau one pierced moment whiter than the rest…

Journaling at WOW- the Women of Worth Conference

It was a pleasure connecting with Christine Awram, founder of Women of Worth, and listening to Yvonne Evans last night at The Granville Island Hotel. Theme: An Empowered CEO on A New Business Culture & Currency I look forward to processing the lessons that I chicken-scratched in my journal and building on the concepts I…

Anxiety journaling tool. #heart #lettinggo #outflow #arttherapy

Focus on 3-4 things that are blocking you, that hinder you, frustrate you, nag at you, keep you from living your life peacefully. E.g. I picked Anxiety, Fear, Money, Low Self-esteem Write for 10 minutes in your journal about these blocks. On a drawing/photocopy of an anatomical heart, write your main words repeatedly throughout the…

Part 35 of 35 daily journal workshop. SELF. #arttherapy

DAILY JOURNAL WORKSHOP SERIES: Part 1 JUST WRITE Part 2 DRAW OUT THE WORDS Part 3 HEART Part 4 SPILL OUT COLLAGE Part 5 NAKED SCREAM Part 6 INVITE ALTER STRETCH EXTEND Part 7 ARISE AROSE IN 3′S Part 8 SELF-PORTRAIT. HUMAN Part 9 WORD CRAZY QUILT Part 10 VINTAGE WORKOUT Part 11 GESTURE DRAWING…

Part 34 of 35 daily journal workshop. GOAL. #arttherapy

A goal or objective is a desired result an animal or a system envisions, plans and commits to achieve—a personal or organizational desired end-point in some sort of assumed development. Many people endeavor to reach goals within a finite time by setting deadlines.  It is roughly similar to purpose or aim, the anticipated result which guides reaction, or an end, which is an object, either a physical…

Part 33 of 35 daily journal workshop. @SusanAkaSARK’s MICROMOVEMENTS. #arttherapy

Time to take a breather and simplify by using SARK‘s inspiring micromovements! Try some micromovements of your own.  Use your journal as your oasis. SARK: SARK is a best-selling author and artist, with sixteen titles in print and well over two million books sold, including the national bestsellers Succulent Wild Woman, Bodacious Book of Succulence,…

Part 32 of 35 daily journal workshop. GRIEF. #arttherapy

LOSS.  What does that mean to you?  Are you scared of it?  Is the fear of losing someone or something preventing you from living now?  Have you experienced such profound loss that grief overwhelms you, and indeed, now shapes you? Write it out.  Or draw it out. There are no easy answers.  There is just…

Part 31 of 35 daily journal workshop. NEWBORN. BRAINSTORM. #arttherapy

Today you are a newborn and you are starting fresh! Draw a baby. Draw brainstorm bubbles above “your “head. Write about what it may be like to start fresh.  Releasing anxiety and hesitancy. Brainstorm central themes in your life.  Just let it happen. Be willing to be a beginner every single morning.  Tomorrow: GRIEF Daily…

Part 30 daily journal workshop. REVIEW. RESOLVE. #arttherapy

REVIEW 1a : a formal military inspection b : a military ceremony honoring a person or an event 2: revision 1a 3: a general survey (as of the events of a period) 4: an act or the process of reviewing 5: judicial reexamination (as of the proceedings of a lower tribunal by a higher) 6a : a critical evaluation (as of a book or play) b : a magazine devoted chiefly…

Part 29 daily journal workshop. MINDFULNESS. #arttherapy

On Dec 26, I had a powerful conversation with a friend about mindfulness. Mindfulness is a state of active, open attention on the present. When you’re mindful, you observe your thoughts and feelings from a distance, without judging them good or bad. Instead of letting your life pass you by, mindfulness means living in the…

Part 28 daily journal workshop. ANGELS AMONG US. #arttherapy

I dedicate this post to my best friend, Maud. — Angels shine from without because their spirits are lit from within. Take a moment to think about what “an angel” means to you.  Draw or write it out. Guest speaker, Liz, truly an angel on earth, bravely faced her abuser this year and is now moving forward…

Part 27 daily journal workshop. SHUT YOUR EYES AND SEE. #arttherapy

Shut your eyes and see. – James Joyce What does this quote mean to you? What does this quote mean to me? Stop trying. Let it happen. By letting it go it all gets done. Surrender. Give up control. Close your eyes and draw a self-portrait- imagining your pen running along your facial lines. Growth…

Part 26 daily journal workshop. PERFECTIONISM. #arttherapy

Understanding the difference between healthy striving and perfectionism is critical to laying down the shield and picking up your life. Research shows that perfectionism hampers success. In fact, it’s often the path to depression, anxiety, addiction, and life paralysis. – Brené Brown Struggling with the need to be perfect = my life. How about you?…

Part 25 daily journal workshop. TAKE YOUR JOURNAL OUT. #arttherapy

Now that we are pretty far into this journal [notice how I’m taking you all the way to the end of mine, and we’re half way there], shove your journal in your bag, or thrust it under your arm, grab some pens and get the hell out of the house. Make your journal your best…

Part 24 daily journal workshop. BODY IMAGE. #arttherapy

Write about your thoughts on body image.  Just stream of consciousness.  Any negative events that affected your views?  Positive events?  Where are you now? … you should get sick more often, he said. Found this online: Glue an image of a favorite person onto a page (just glue three sides), write a positive message to…