Saudade describes a deep emotional state of nostalgic longing for an absent something or someone that one loves. It often carries a repressed knowledge that the object of longing will never return. It’s related to the feelings of longing, yearning.
I have written about Saudade before. For example: November 3, 2012 SAUDADE: THE EMOTION OF MISSING. #GRIEF
December 28, 2012 THE DARKENING CATHEDRAL: PROCESSING THE EMOTION OF MISSING
March 7, 2017 A REMINDER THAT SOMETIMES IT IS OK TO DO LESS.
November 17, 2017 PERHAPS I AM SIMPLY AN EXPLORER. NOT SEEKING ANSWERS…
I felt a tad out of sorts this afternoon, burnt out– sensing the spaces under my wings too occupied, knowing it is time to shush out those taking shelter there. [Yep- time for new boundaries.]
My anxiety hovered trying to find a place to land. Then a familiar intense wave of suadade washed over me.
It is that thick-heart feeling right before a deep cry. It is a longing to visit times past.
Pulling out old photos provided comfort and allowed gentle tears to flow. I sat all smiling, conversing with the memories.
Thank goodness my father loved to record family life. And thank goodness for these massive albums and boxes of tactile images .